It was a pickup truck, dirty
blue, with a gash in the driver’s side door from some other angry episode. We
pulled into the gas station right after he’d hit me harder than the usual. I
heard a thunk inside my head, followed by stars and the weird hot metal smell
of an iron heating up. There was a little whitewashed clapboard church across
the road with yellow flowers in front. There was also a pool hall within
running distance on my side of the truck, but those flowers got my attention.
When he went to pay for the gas, I grabbed my bag out of the back and ran
across the road to the church. I slipped inside and crawled under one of the
front pews while two old ladies cleaned around me. I was only there a minute
before he stormed in. One of the ladies, bucket and mop in hand, asked if he
was looking for Jesus. Since even he wouldn’t hit an old lady in a house of
God, he shuffled out, I wished I’d seen it, and soon enough I heard the pickup
gurgle as he drove off away.
One of the ladies said I could
come out, the other offered me ice tea. I climbed a ladder to wash the windows
they couldn’t reach and that night a biker chick I met at the pool hall let me
sleep on her sofa. In the morning, I hitched a ride home with a bug-eyed
hillbilly driving a big truck who must have done 100 the whole time.
He was from the New Orleans crew who ate at the
restaurant where I was the waitress. There was also a gang of Texans who looked
like peace and love hippies. And a bunch of badass pot growers from Alabama who
drove souped up Caddies that could out run any sheriff’s vehicle. These were
not bumpkins, and I fit right in with my lipstick red hair and elaborate silver
and turquoise jewelry. When I moved in with him, I hadn’t even started to
unpack before he yelled at me. He ran hot or cold, I never knew which he'd be
and I spent most of my time trying to stay one step ahead of him, it was
exhausting. When he moved out, he left some of his furniture behind and stuck
me with the bills. I pushed his stuff out on the porch; when he came to pick it
up and saw what I had done, he shut off the utilities with a monkey wrench.
Later, I was bad mouthing him at a bar saying I wished his new house would burn
down when the woman next to me leaned back and there he was. The room froze,
just like in an old western movie; we glared at each other for a cold moment
before I walked out. That same night, his new place did burn to the ground
along with his truck, which was filled with what he’d rescued earlier from the
porch. He got out just in time, he swore I had cursed him and caused it.
Odd, I
dreamed about him hopping around barefoot in front of a bonfire when it was
actually happening.
Early on, when things still
looked good with him, he took me to Mardi Gras. He told me bayou ghost stories
as we drove along the Mississippi with spooky Spanish moss swaying from the
trees, and on the day of the big parade, he wrote the address of where we were
staying on my arm in case I got lost. Which, of course, I did. We were dancing
with the crowd and suddenly he was gone. I bobbed around trying to find him
until I saw a cop and showed him the address on my arm; he walked me to the bus
stop to make sure I caught the right one. I showed the address to the bus
driver too and when I sat down, I realized my shoes were missing. I thought I
loved him at the time, I do know he didn’t love me. Years later, I heard he was born-again and preaching to his own
congregation. He was the first of the three blond Irish-American men I’ve been
with who’ve tried to wreck my life; you’d think once would have been enough to
learn my lesson.
enjoyed this. really a good read!
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